Lester and Such
Well Im not sure if I told you all this, but I finally have a new fish. His name is Lil Lester, and he's BEAUTIFUL!
Now for the prayer requests, heres whats happening. Im still too closed, I have trust issues, and I cant hear God. So if you could pray about those things that would be great. Its really effecting the dancing and my relationship with each and every person on the team. Well thanks a bunch!

My Shell
Hey friends. Im only confident enough to ask this, because I know for a fact that only my closest friends (all BBC) are reading this: Well today at dance I got extremely frustrated, as some of you know I've been put into a ballet/modren piece that intails me being lifted. Now most of you also have seen my progress with my self confidence level. The problem, if you havent put the 2 together yet, is that I feel as though Im going back into my shell, and it started when we started doing this dance. I find myself looking in the mirror more and pointing out my fault. Its so frustrating to have gotten so far, just to fall back because of a dance. Today I finally got up the courage to ask the choreographer if we could talk about it after practise. I only go the courage, because she asked me not to do the dance with the group because I could injure my partner (I wasn't going full out, which is more dangerous). She said that would be ok. So after the practise we sat down and started talking, I told her about my insecurities which was scary, and how I felt about the dance. I told her it wasnt her that I was frustrated at, ect. Then she told me about her life when she was my age, we teared up a couple of times, and I realized I have someone on my side. That was nice for a change. I've never felt that way before. She still doesnt want me to quit this dance, but she told me to take some time out to pray and then let her know what I come up with. My problem again, is that I havent figured out how to listen. Some of us have talked about this on our walks, so here's what Im going to do. I'm gonna pray, but I'll also going to ask you to pray. Then let me know what you think, I'll try to listen harder, and hopefully with Gods grace, some good will come out of this. Thank you all for being so helpful, and always being there!

Irish where you like it or not!
So my MSN name has to do a bit with the fact I AM Irish! Anyways, on MSN buddy decided he didnt like the fact I consider myself part Irish, because I was born here and so was my emidiate family. WHAT THE HECK! How come Im not alowd to call my self an Irish/Polish Canadian? Thats what I am, its part of me!! I don't understand the problem, sure I've never been there, but its still in me! I mean its part of my haratige there for I started learning Irish dancing, I like to learn about my background, and it IS a part of who I am today! Well thats my rant for today! Happy St. Patricks DAy Everyone!!

roomy
So last night/this morning, I met Craigs roommate. He's interesting to say the least! He has strong opinions and wont back down just because someone says otherwise. He has morals, and a story. It was great talking to him! I like meeting new people. Its not every day you meet someone who will call you smart for saying conditioned responses have to do with Psychology...LOL Anyways. I am so blessed, God keeps sending me such different people, and they are so fun. In the words of Justin Timberlake... Im lovin' it! Thank you God for giving me such friendships, and acquaintances! Amen!

Nathans!
Well my good friend Nathan A. Has left the team for 6 months. Not just cuz, but because God has called him to Australia! Amen! Anyways, he was just online and we were talking. Boy has he changed, but its all good! I thought he was full before, but he's ubber full now! He's just so full of love and God and passion, and greatness. I can't wait to hear more about what God's doing for him!
Now for Nathan W. Another good friend (not from MB). He comes on line and I am instently smiling! I've mensioned this before, but everytime he comes on line he greets me with " Hi SUPER JESS!" now its become Ubber super jess! Hes great. And I can tell him anything. He listens and prays for me and I am glad to have him as a confidont! Thanks boys for your greatness! Nates truely are greats! ;)

AMEN!
Well here's a praise report for you! Thursday night my mom could not come out to Morris with Erin and I again, so like everyother time, I had to drive out. (Erin doesnt have a licience) And as you all no both times mom wasnt there we went in the ditch. well the third times a charm! Or the more probable answer is that God was with us and answering our prayers! I made it all the way there (and say the skid marks from the van the second time I had gone in the ditch (morris), and then all the way back! Only after we got on the perimeter did the visibility drop, and we were almost at the turn off for home anyway! So AMEN! and thank you for your prayers!

Computer Problems and Dreams
Well I'll start off with telling you about my computer trouble. Some time last week our main computer started to do stupid stuff like turn off and not recognize the mouse. So we took it in to Dave. (I just realized our car Mechanic and computer mech both have the same name...) He fixed it but it took a few days to do. So I'd been without a comp for what seemed like a week or two, but really it was like 3 days. I totally feel like I've missed alot and am really out of the loop with my BBC friends. So much so that I had a nightmare about Jordan, but Im not quite there yet. So anyways while Im waiting for the comp to come back I went to Best Buy and found 4 sim games for 20$, so I went for it. I dont know why but I like that game. So now that we have the comp back I want to put it on, however I was told to wait until after we put windows XP on, which wont be for a bit. Oh well whats a few more days!
Alright, now for my worst dream ever! So Im in this room, like a shower room at a pool. and its co ed, no clothing removal. I guess we just finished int he pool and were rinsing to go and get changed. I got annoyed with Jordan for asking to many stupid questions, so I went for a walk. I was grabbed by my friend Jon and I think 2 others from my dance team but I didnt recognize them. They said we were late for a performance. So we walked along for about and hour and a half. As soon as we get in there I hear gun shots. I started freaking out because I new the moffia was after me so I ran back to the pool place. People were grabbing me and trying to stop me from getting in the way of the gun shots but I new Jordan was still there and had to keep him safe... however I ran in and saw the window he had been infront of was smashed like someone went through it. So I went back out side, and saw him laying there with these wierd bullet holes all over his face and neck. and if you moved the skin theyd open up wider and blood was coming out of all of them. Thats when I woke myself up. I was no angry with myself for letting him get shot. I was almost crying when I woke up! Any ideas of what that ment? send me your thoughts!